It’s been more than 10 days since I left home. And I’ll be back in an hour from now. This time, it’s with mixed feelings that I return. On the one hand I wish this trip could have been longer. I wish I could gain invaluable international experience by working outside India for a few years. On the other, it’s a quiet determination to bring the situation under my control.

I realise that I’ve spent a lot of time regretting what could have been in the past year. That realisation was hard to come by. It hasn’t been easy to accept that perhaps I was not entirely right. Perhaps I was too caught up in the circumstances to examine and act on things that I could indeed control.

At the end of this realisation is to make things better starting now. A first step is refuse to accept being a victim. Yes. I realise now that sometimes it is indeed as easy as that. Nobody can make you miserable if you refuse to be. And I refuse to be a victim of circumstances.

At some point in my life I might have to make difficult choices but today is not it. Today, I just need to decide to be happy. I need to change the things I can and accept the things I cannot. There will always be things in life we do not like.

This has been a voyage of self discovery. A voyage of knowing my own needs and desires. A voyage of enlightenment. And for that, I am grateful.


One thought on “Homecoming

  • November 23, 2014 at 10:53 am

    Your write-up brings to mind a lot of things I studied,read and enjoyed during my younger days.”Work while you work ,play while you play,that is the way to be happy and gay.That was during my childhood.During adolescence it was “Drink and be merry,tomorrow is not ours”.Since long it is “The mind is its own place and in itself can make a heaven of hell or a hell of heaven.”I feel with age one almost takes a new avatar.Anyway wish you all the best in your journey of self discovery.


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